You know when you think you’re Superwoman and can get it all done?
Except you’re not? And you can’t? And then the guilt looms over you like a big, fat, black cloud? Because you can’t live up to your own superhero expectations?
Bah. That just about sums up my life this past month.
Between parenting and wife-ing and organizing and summering and planning for the Gather Conference, I feel like I’ve been good for just about nothing. Except for messy floors, take-out meals and undone laundry. Bah.
My sweet friend says that I’m just too hard on myself. Maybe I am, but dang, it’s not easy trying to do everything and do it all
PERFECTLY REALLY WELL!!! #recoveringperfectionist #imaworkinprogress 🙂
What I am thankful for, though, is how God can speak to me even in the midst of my crazy. Y’all, God yanked the rug out from under my feet this week, and I’m giddy with joy over what He’s doing in my heart!
I read the post, You Could’ve Been Something and it rocked my world. You have GOT to go read this if you haven’t already. It has all sortsa gospel truth in it that will knock your sweet little socks off! Or at least encourage you a ton!
Here’s how God spoke to me. Maybe you can resonate. 🙂
Doing Big Things for God
I’ve believed the lie that in order for God to say to me “well done, good and faithful servant”, that I needed to do big things for God. I don’t need to pursue that one “thing” as if that’s the only way that I can serve God and fulfill His purpose for me. As if it’s a savior that will rescue me from an ordinary, mundane life, whatever that one “thing” is. Does that mean that I don’t pursue what I feel God has called me to? Absolutely not. It just frees me to find joy in the everyday and not look to that one “thing” to fulfill me in a way that only God can.
With that said, I’m also able to see the calling of being a wife, a mom, a friend, a neighbor, a daughter and a sister as just as beautiful and purposeful and God-glorifying as becoming some successful woman who does “big things for God”. I can be ordinary to the glory of Christ, because serving and loving others IS doing big things for God. In the same way that serving the “least of these” (Matt. 25:40) is serving Christ, I can find joy and a holy purpose in doing the mundane and serving others, even when it goes unnoticed and unappreciated. 🙂
The whole of the Christian life is to die to self and live for the glory of God. He gave Himself up for me, and now I get to offer myself up as a living sacrifice (Rom. 12:1). There’s something beautiful about becoming nothing for the sake of the glory of Christ. Not only does it relieve me of pressure and burden to “be something”, but it reflects the gospel, in that Jesus…
“emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father (Phil. 2:7-11).
And that’s a beautiful thing.
Because my identity is not in being Somebody. My identity is in Christ, and in Christ I get to be Nobody for the glory of Somebody who died for everybody.
And as I busily prepare for the Gather Conference and dream up big dreams of making a big impact on this generation through writing and speaking, I’ve found joy and rest in the season that I am in, raising children and serving and loving my husband wherever the Army takes us. And if that means things happen a little more slowly or a little more differently than I’d like, then so be it.
Because my dreams are not the end goal. My dreams are not the focus.
Jesus is the end goal. Jesus is the focus.
How about you? What do you think of the article? How did God speak to you through it? Are you able to rest in your calling as mother, wife, friend? What big dreams do you have? Where do you struggle? How have you overcome?