I’ve always been a thinker.
I know, I sometimes come across as a bit ditzy, but behind my goofy, crooked smile lie deep, intense, sometimes chaotic thoughts.
I’m ALWAYS thinking and my thoughts bounce around faster than I can process them. Kind of like if I tried to play ping-pong with 10 pro ping-pongers at once. That’s what my brain is like at any given moment, I’m pretty sure.
On top of that, I remember wrestling with the deeper questions of life and suffering and theology at a very young age.
-I tend to over-analyze and think too much about trivial things (translate: freak out over nothing).
-I tend to become anxious and fearful.
-I second-guess and doubt myself all. the. time.
-I can become embittered, with my thoughts magnifying a wrong and blowing it out of proportion.
-I can become insecure and read too much into meaningless situations.
-I can dwell on the negative rather than the positive qualities of myself and others.
-I sometimes have to fight dark, depressing thoughts.
-I can lack faith and trust in God, and therefore allow my thoughts to get whackadoo and out of control…..
While this can all be frustrating and discouraging at times, it’s not debilitating. Well, at least it wasn’t until I was smacked with a severe case of Postpartum Depression/Anxiety when I had my youngest. (You can read my story here.)
It was AWFUL.
I remember reading the verses, “For me, to live is Christ and to die is gain” (Phil. 1:21), and thinking, “Yes…and I just wanna die”.
Seriously. It was a very dark season in my life. I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. It felt like some dark force had hijacked my body and I couldn’t escape. I didn’t feel like myself.
I wasn’t myself.
But out of this dark season, God did an amazing work in my life. He taught me the power of taking every thought captive to obey Christ. I grew in unimaginable ways, and while you couldn’t pay me a million dollars to go back there, I’m beyond thankful that God allowed me to go through it.
While you may not struggle in the same ways I have, we all, in one way or another, struggle with our thought life.
But I’ve got great news for you!!!
Our thoughts can be transformed!
Because when we become followers of Christ, God makes us new and gives us a new heart and a new mind, and puts His Spirit within us that will transform us from the inside out! (Ez. 36:26, 2 Cor. 5:17.)
And when our thoughts are transformed, we are transformed (Rom. 12:2).
God has much to say about our thoughts in His Word, which we can apply to our lives and see our lives changed as a result!
Next week I’ll begin a 3-part blog post series called Every Thought Captive, which will focus on the different types of thoughts we can struggle with, as well as the thoughts that glorify God and give us freedom and joy. I’ll end by giving you practical ways to transform your thoughts daily so that it becomes a habit in your life and YOU are transformed!
Won’t you join me for this series?
Whether you battle fear, anxiety, worry, depression, anger, jealousy, bitterness, insecurity, shame, or any other negative thought patterns, I’d love to see how God can free you and draw you closer to Himself through this series!!!
I’d love for you to be a part of the Grace upon Grace community and I’d LOVE for you to share this with any friends who you think could benefit from this message! Just be sure to go sarahgorsuch.com to sign up to receive email updates if you haven’t yet, so you don’t miss a post!
I can’t wait to start this journey with you, my friend! Be transformed and be free!!!
I’d love to hear from you:
-What kinds of thoughts do you struggle with the most?
-How have those thoughts affected your life and the lives of those around you?
Read first post in series: Every Thought Captive (1/3).